Dedicated to Tericka...where's my access?!?!

So, clearly I'm not one of the popular bloggers in cyberspace. However, I do know that I have a few faithful readers...one of them being, Tericka. However, when I attempt to read her blog, it's blocked. THEN, I saw where she posted a comment on one of my recent blog entries that stated I had access to her blog but when I clicked on her blog, there was no access granted...AGAIN

So, as I fall to ground in despair with my hand on my forehead and wonder to myself, "alas, what shall I do?", I'll hope that this is a screaming notice to Tericka that I don't have access to her blog. "Where art thou blog", I ask thee in my best medieval English voice.....sigh

Mixed Feelings About a Mixture of Things

1) School's almost out for the semester and I am glad. However, I'd be lying if I weren't truthful in saying that I haven't been the best student. I'd like to finish with a strong finish; however, I'm so far behind that I don't even know where I'd even begin that strong finish...sigh

2) Speaking of strong finishes, I'm supposed to begin an internship for my degree. I'm excited but also apprehensive because it will more than likely require me to quit my job. While things haven't been exactly smooth at my job, I still had job security and a decent but very small paycheck coming in every other week. While at the interview for my internship, I was offered a part-time position so I'll have some money coming in; but, I'm sure it won't be what I was getting. Either way, I'm hopeful and optimistic because God will provide...He always does ;-) Nonetheless, my job requires a 30 day notice and within those 30 days, one is required to make sure that all their files are "up to par"...please sigh with me once more...thanks

3) I should be jetting off to Hawaii in about 3 weeks. While I'm suuuuper excited, I'm apprehensive as well. As the maid of honor, I've been given the duty to make one of two speeches about my dear friend. I'm really excited about this, but I fear that I might get up there and start rambling...However, my biggest prayer that I don't ramble so much that I start to bring up her old boyfriends or another equally embarrassing subject! Lol! I realize that I need to focus my thoughts by writing my speech, but there's so much that I could say about her...just like with all my dear, true friends, I love them bunches :)

4) Within the same vein of my previous thought, my bestie is moving. I'm sad to see her and Miss R leave, but I know it's for the best. I know she'll do well; she always does. It's just a little bittersweet because rather than just merely stopping by to see her on my way back from school or from seeing my parents, I'll have to get a plane ticket and/or a rental car. However, I'm all about growth especially in the Spring...so it's her season and I must accept that and watch her grow

5) Lastly, I don't know if I've mentioned this on my blog but Brandon and I parted ways. With this break-up, I feel very liberated. However, I also feel that I'm not careful, I could end up in a situation that I'm not ready for...more specifically, I been meeting lots of nice guys...some more enchanting than others, lol. Nonetheless, I know that I am what some would call "serial monogomist" (sp?)...I love to have a boyfriend. So it's almost natural for me to feel myself getting attached to people way too quickly; but I realize that is a habit that I MUST break. So, I've been dating different guys and it seems to be working well so far...But, I'd be lying if I didn't see myself getting attached. So rather than repeating my past, I often take self-imposed sabaticals from certain people. The only thing about that is that people don't always understand those sabaticals....I find myself wanting to tell those people," dude, no it doesn't have anything to do with you" or "we're not in a relationship, can you please let me breathe???"...geez! There's much talk about how women are so overly-emotionally and sensitive; however, some men fit in that same category...

Anyway, have a happy and blessed Monday all!!

Random Thoughts for a Mundane Monday....

I had a pretty decent weekend, nothing extremely pressing to complain about...HOWEVER, I did notice a couple of things that I wanted to vent about!!

1) Why do the majority of the size 12-14 swimsuits look so old and matronly?!?! OMG! I really thought I could spend a little time yesterday and pick up a couple of swimsuits for my upcoming trip to Hawaii, but that task is proving to be a little more difficult than I ever imagined! Almost every swimsuit that I came across, had a ridiculous floral print (gag me!!) ALONG with some type of sash, tie, or other unnecessary ornamentation.

Seriously...just because I'm not a size 8 means that I'm out of the running for a halfway decent swimsuit?!?! Wrong!!! While I acknowledge that I am overweight, it should not deem that I can't find a nice swimsuit without breaking the bank! I could (and have) hopped on the 'net to try to find a nice swimsuit that is befitting a woman of my size, however, the really cute ones were $100+. No ma'am/sir...it's not that serious...I don't go swimming enough to spend that type of money. However, if we were discussing a handbag, that might be a different thing :-)

2) Why are so many people trying to use lawsuits to get ahead?!?! I mean, seriously, I ran into/overheard at least 3 people over the past weekend talking about how they couldn't wait for their lawsuit to come in! WTF??? I know the world is pretty screwed up but it was still somewhat bothersome that it seemed as if so many people were waiting for their "ship to come in". Within the people that I ran into who discussed their pending lawsuit, one thing seemed to be common among them; from appearances, they didn't necessarily seem as if they were on the upper echelon of economic well-being in the first place. So, with that being said, I know that being poor or impoverished brings on a certain amount of despair and hopelessness. However, I would honestly hope that within that hopelessness there's a certain amount of ambition to want to see oneself do better rather than just wait for some money to come in -- because 9 times out of 10, even that lawsuit money won't last long...just look at how many past lottery winners are now broke.

Anywhoo, that's my rant for the day. If anyone is still reading this blog, I sincerely hope that you'll have a wonderfully blessed week...but if you're not, then make it your business to do so. This is Spring and it is the time for renewal. Remember: "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." --Isaiah 40:31

Chris Brown and Rihanna...can't they just live their lives???

So, the radios, internet, tv, etc have been totally saturated with the latest editions to the Chris Brown/Rihanna saga. My question is..."am I the only who thinks that these people should be left alone???" Seriously. Yes, it was wrong for C.B. to beat up Rihanna like that...and even then, I am basing my assumption on the picture that was leaked by the police department. However, I find fault in the way that C.B. has been attacked. I'm not saying that he was not wrong, but at the same time, he's innocent until proven guilty....

I just find it extremely sickening how people just have this fascination with what's going on in Chris and Rihanna's lives...I mean, don't people have bigger fish to fry?!?! After all, we ARE in a recession!!! People are losing jobs left and right, along with losing their houses, and their retirement funds/pensions!! However, people would prefer to stay glued to the tv to get the latest about what's going on with ol Chris and RiRi!!

I mean, I would be okay if I could easily turn on CNN or Headline News to see the least developments on President Obama's administration or how Rush Limbaugh continues to make himself look like a racist prick...however, I have a SERIOUS problem when those aforementioned channels are known for respectable new coverage are not filling their time and their news tickers with the most recent developments regarding Chris Brown!!!! Ugh!!! Who cares if he gets counseling with his pastor!!! I wish him well, but that does not affect my life. Who cares if his childhood consisted of his parents being violent toward each other!!! Yeah, that's really sad and unfortunate; I hope the counseling helps but that still doesn't affect my life. Who cares if Chris and Rihanna decided to reconcile!!! If that's what they want to do, I wish them all the luck in the world; but, again, THAT DOES NOT AFFECT MY LIFE!!!!

I guess, in the end, what I'm trying to say is that people should be able to live their lives however those choose as long as it does not infringe on the rights of others. Chris and Rihanna getting into an altercation will not help me pay my bills nor will it ensure that I do well in school. I understand that the lives of celebrities are often fascinating to look at. However, is there ever a point in time when we just say "enough is enough"???

For Patrice and Kendie :)

So...within the past two days, I have gotten requests for the aforementioned ladies to update my blog. No, scratch that...it wasn't a request; it was more like, a demand. Lol! Anywhoo...I guess I've kinda of developed a blog phobia. Maybe phobia is a strong word, but the feeling is more a less the kind where one side of your mind tells me, "you should update your blog"...meanwhile, the other side says, "you seriously don't have time". Nonetheless, I've decided to get over my blog fear, phobia, etc and appease my loving friends :)

School and work have seriously gotten me bogged down; but, I can handle it. I can't figure out which one is more stressful, but I think that work is close to winning that award. Ugh. The agency that I work for is going through quite a bit of turmoil, so there are constant changes in the midst of people trying to maintain their cool when you can tell that they're one step away from losing it. The economy has seriously affected us because there is not any funding being contributed to the people that we serve. However, in that lack of funding, there are also forces who seem to want to see our agency fail...I'm not going to get specific because I don't know who is lurking around. Either way, there has been a strong push for everyone to be on their "p's and q's" but even in doing so, it almost seems as if we're fighting a losing battle. So, with that I'm extremely grateful that I'm in school because I don't know how much longer my agency will be in existance in its current form....ok, enough of the sad stuff.

Words cannot express how excited I am to be going to Hawaii next month!!!! AHHHH!!! While I'm not exactly in beach-body shape (I have lost weight, though), I'm still really thrilled to get some of that Hawaiian sun!!

Besides that, I'm looking forward to attempting to plan a class reunion alongside my best bud :) I can only imagine the work that's ahead of us and I am realistic enough to know that we probably won't agree on everything. But, I know that we'll work everything out and hopefully it'll be a success!! However, I wish that my other homie-til-end could be more involved, but living in Japan might not be very conducive to planning a class reunion in Decatur, AL, lol! Either way, I can't wait!!!!

Ok, that's enough for now...gotta get back to work. Hopefully, I have appeased the masses by gracing cyberspace with my prescence and thoughts...lol

East vs. West...The Real Housewives of ATL, NYC, and the OC

So, yesterday, while I was working at home I happened to become absolutely enthralled with the Orange County edition of the The Real Housewives series that appears on Bravo. Yes, I have a new addiction!! How do you know this, you may ask...well, any time I'm willing to devote a complete blog to something, clearly it has to be something that I am passionate about :)

Let me tell you...up until yesterday I mainly watched the Atlanta edition of the series -- however, that completely changed!! Now, I must state that watching the ATL housewives was a guilty pleasure at first mainly because I heard lots of media outlets saying how that cast misrepresented successful Black women (most of the cast member's husbands are atheletes). However, once I saw how many other people were taking part in this guilty pleasure, I decided to make my affinity for the show known as well...I mean, heck, you had Anderson Cooper of CNN talking about how is absolute FAVORITE character on the show was Nene!!! I felt that was the equivalent of getting the Pope's approval...but then again, I'm not Catholic so that probably doesn't count...ANYWHOO, I watched the show and became addicted but I never really thought about watching the other two editions because I just figured that they wouldn't give me the type of drama and mess that "reality tv show lover" within me craved...boy was I wrong!!!

From my perspective both groups (OC and ATL) are just the same. For instance, they both engage in obsessive and almost sickening amounts of spending money. Additionally, there's atleast one person in both groups that is so messy that it makes it almost impossible to not want to anticipate what that woman's next diabolical move is going to be.

I hear that the same holds true for the NYC cast as well! So, I foresee that I'll acquire another addiction. But, hey, a minor addiction to reality tv hasn't ever hurt anyone, right?? I mean, geez, at least it's not internet porn...lol!

An attempt for a a new me for the new year

Whew!!! So it's seriously been a minute since I last posted...At the time of my last post, the country was still engrossed in a hard-fought presidential election, I was still still trying to decide what or if I was going to do anything for Halloween, and precious Reagan wasn't quite 1 year old yet. So, if you get my drift it's been a minute since I've posted and I've gotta to do better!! With that in mind, I decided that I'd turn my short list of things that I'd like to work on for the new year into a blog...however, keep in mind that I'm not referring to the following list as resolutions because that term seems to strenuous and binding -- instead I'd like to think of them as "personal characteristics that I'd like to work on". (lol)

1) Become more punctual...consistently.
For those who know me, I'm usually late. If I say I'll be there in 15 minutes, go ahead and expect that I'll actually be there in 30 :) However, as of late, I've been trying to do better and but I'm not consistent with it.

2) Stop being mean to Brandon.
Brandon's my boyfriend and I love him...honestly, I do. However, I'm mean to him. I tell him that I pick on him because I love him. Such a characteristic possibly makes me a bully and no one likes a bully.

3) Be more "girly".
From Dec. 26-31st, I visited my family in Michigan. My dad's sisters (my aunts) are brutally honest and gave it to me raw. I'm 27 years old and still march around with nothing on my face not even lip gloss and, to them, that's unacceptable. Funny thing is, that was not the 1st time anyone tried to conduct a "makeup intervention" on me...A couple of months ago, my mother gave me 2 bags full of makeup that she wasn't using anymore. I took that as her way of just getting rid of it without throwing it away. While I took the makeup, I tossed it aside because it Fashion Fair makeup and who wears that in 2008??? (well, besides my mom...lol) Anyway, my mother saw me on New Year's day and noticed that I had on eyeshadow and a lip gloss and she was ELATED!! LOL! However, little did she know, that makeup was actually remnants of the makeup that I had on the previous night...I caught a couple zzz's on Trice's couch and hadn't had time to wash my face. Needless to say, since so much people are making a big deal about this whole makeup thing, I might give it a try. Instead of wearing it when I go out on the weekends, I might attempt to at least throw on some lip gloss...notice that I said "might attempt"

4) If people are going to allow themselves to walk into a brick wall, then I'm gonna let 'em.
I'm a social worker and it's my job to protect vulnerable people. However, I sometimes let that aspect of my job fall into a character trait and often try to warn my friends of what I may think are disastrous situations. But, my warnings to them are often unsolicited and therefore don't go over too well. So, for now, if people ask my opinion then I'll glady give it. Otherwise, if I feel that they're going into dangerous territory but they don't ask me for my opinion, then I'll keep my mouth closed; hopefully, they'll avoid that brick wall, but if they run into it head-first then I won't a bit surprised.

5) With #4 in mind...I'm going to stop being a "know-it-all".
After some introspective thinking, I've realized that I will often think that I know more than people do about their own lives. However, that's flawed thinking and I don't have a problem admitting that. I know that just because I'd do something one way, does not mean that someone else will do it the same way...as my dad says, "there's more than one way to skin a cat".

Ok, that's it. Wishing all who read this a happy and prosperous New Year!!!